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June ends and July is coming. Time moves so fast. I've been in the college half year. A lot of changes happen on me, physically and mentally.

Just now my mummy told me that government can't change the date, shyt. That means I have to go home for 2 weeks consecutively. It's tiring you know, damn the government. Recently many things are waiting for me to worry :( First of all, is the academic. CIE exam timetable came out already. It means that I must start to do revision. Oh gosh ! CIE is not same with SPM. I can study for SPM on the last minute but CIE is "international". I should stop procastinating my time ! I can't fail because every subject costs RM250 and all together is RM1000. I cannot waste my parents money. Stresss.
Secondly, is the issue of university. Lecturer said we can start apply to university. To be honest, I'm not as ambitious as my classmates. They are applying to UK and overseas university. Yet, I choose local university. Reason is, homesick is continously haunting me LOL and also, Malaysia "boleh". So, my future university is left undecided. However my lecturer said I must choose university already so that I can fulfill the requirement. Arghh, I want to wait until my results come out larh. But for sure, it's local university. This matter worries me.
Thirdly, I don't know how to go back on next week and during the raya holiday. Idontwanttositaeroplane. It's so expensive. But nobody accompany me to sit the train =(

July is coming, it indicates I have to pay the rental on tomorrow. Haiz, $$ flow out again. I almost pokai jor lahhh.

I hope July would be a better month, yet I feel everything will left unchange. Nothing would change.